Secret Trial Five - We’re not Taqwacore
what the fuck
is a muslim punk?
rather hang with taliban
than dick around with drunks
muhammad wasn’t white
and neither is this fight
and we weren’t birthed
by michael knight
so so so much love for this
so much love for this band! they were so good.
yelled an entire song into a mic while playing guitar today FOR THE FIRST TIMMMMEE. With other folks around/jamming. Pretty big step in my overcoming performance anxiety. Yay!
it was so fun. i want to do vocals/play guitar in all the bands. Michela, where is our band??
kay, not to shit on anyone’s parade or anything but really, if you’ve been dating someone monogamously for many many years, what’s the point of the ‘surprise popping the question’? Like you’ve probably talked about marriage already and already know this is the direction yr going in…so really, why the big show? Seems kinda silly…like many other aspects of marriage but yaaaa know, whatever makes you stoked, i guess.
so i’ve written a zine called ‘doom clouds’ that i’ll be tabling for the first time with my distro at Montreal’s bookfair next weekend. I sat at my window early this morning which looks out into the backyard. I re-read the zine for the final time and cried as i read the final entry which describes my struggle to leave an abusive relationship and all the alienation it caused me within my friends and ‘communities’. It ends with, ‘at least, i got out’. I read the final sentence and looked outside and saw squirrels chasing each other and birds flying and the sun shining and fucking smiled because i DID get out and i’m getting better everyday. And even though this recovery is fucking hard, i am doing it.
***PLZ NOTE: this zine is pretty much my first time writing about this situation and is part of my recovery process. In my current state of recovery i CANNOT talk about this abuse in detail so please don’t try to ask me questions/talk to me about it. I can write about it and would much rather read your questions/feedback/whatever and then write back to you. Respect this.